You were made to bring Him glory and not bring yourself or other people glory. It is not about you. It is about Jesus. Which is why you need to stop the unhealthy competition or trying so hard to fit into the religious box that has been created.
He makes the whole body fit together perfectly. As each part does its own special work, it helps the other parts grow, so that the whole body is healthy and growing and full of love. Eph 4:16(NLT)
If the whole body were an eye, where would the sense of hearing be? If the whole body were an ear, where would the sense of smell be?But in fact God has arranged the parts in the body, every one of them, just as he wanted them to be. 1 corinthians 12: 17-18
In bringing Him glory, you will find satisfaction and strength. So stop trying to be like every body else, God made you and He has put some wonderful things in you. Sit with Him and find those things. You will be marvelously surprised .
He needs you to be you.